Ok, well, after a catastrophic week, socially, emotionally, educationally and parentally, I am well ready to start again already.
I initiated my "you screw up with the small amount of responsibility you have, there, Banker dear, watch me pile it on, no, I am not removing any responsibility, I am quadrupling it" plan. First 15 minutes in and it's going swimmingly.
I wrote the week's plan in the Banker's binder, the purple, 'this is what we do' binder. I put days and dates at the top of each page and filled each with the instruction, chapter and workload for the day. There's 5 of them in there for this week, Friday only says "coOp" so it's not so bad.
The new moment in time this week is that I handed the binder, the paperwork, the test, the project form and told him to do it and we'll meet Thursday at 4pm. He looked gobsmacked then I smiled and said, "I don't care what order you do this work in, when you do it or what time at night you finish, it has to be done by Thursday at 4"
If he feels like History, he can do History, if he feels like physics on Wednesday instead of today then so be it. I'm not going to supervise the schedule at all but I have asked him to check in with me when he's finished various pages (because I can't totally not peek)
I can't wait to see how this plays out. It will either go very very well or very very badly.
He has an appointment with a friend who is a brilliant photographer and we are going to lurk around south Lamar in Austin today, on this brilliant sunny Texas Fall day, and take pictures of the food trucks and art and buildings. It'll be a good diversion as well as take 4 hours out of his work week... ooooooh you're going to have to really schedule tightly, Banker to get it all in.
I haven't figured out what, if anything, will happen if we doesn't get the work done, this is more an experiment in maturity, responsibility and reducing stress and increasing the love of what it is that he's learning and doing.
We are also going to figure out a Minecraft creeper head for Halloween We have a green box base and just have to pixel it. We are going to hang about with friends, having a drink while the boys hand out candy then go out and then hit the trick or treat road for a bit after the little kids are done. Hey, it's a night out ;) I must add, I hate HATE hate what Minecraft has become to some of the Banker's friends. Way too serious and WAY too intense and we are almost done with it if it keeps up.
I've had an epiphany that has fixed me and my committee for a while. I was sent a message by 9 friends, who I haven't seen in 14+ years, went to lunch together. They talked about me, I matter to them, it fixed the hole I had. It's not, after all, what I do that matters; it's who I am. Who I am mattered enough to people I haven't seen in so many years that they gathered and sent me video messages and there isn't anything else that could have fixed me the way that did. I am wrapped in the original inner sanctum blanket and feel warm and safe and yummy.
The Banker will do fine this week, I have almost total faith.
I'm off to get us ready to head to the food trailers in Austin because, well, if you are going to take pictures in Austin, you need to start with food ;)